My Thankfulness List may look a bit different from yours…some may find it morbid. I find it liberating!
I am thankful for my first husband’s death, for from it came a strength I never knew I had within me. I am thankful for not giving up on God during those dark days – instead to find some of the sweetest moments with Him that I’ve ever experienced. I am thankful that through his death, I resolved to cherish life and work hard and then take the important time to play hard. I also was inspired to encourage my children to run after their dreams – to live without regrets.
I am thankful for an ex-wife’s letter to me before I married Dan – almost incriminating him and alarming me into wondering if I really knew Dan at all. It was through this that God delivered to me my most cherished physical sign that I was to marry Dan – a sand dollar. Not only did God bless me with that – He used my kids to find them and allowed a doubting sister-in-law to witness and see that God was alive and working in my life.
I am thankful for another chance to care for my parents. When my mom developed Alzheimer’s Disease, I grew distant instead of drawing near, helping more, and being compassionate. Now that my dad has the same disease, I feel blessed to be able to care for him in my home and remember that honoring our parents was one of the original “Big 10” (Commandments that is).
I am thankful for a blended family. It was so much harder than I thought it ever could be. The dynamics were all over the place. The personalities and characteristics of each child were diverse. The hurdles were huge. The trust was tiny. But, hope was still there. God allowed me to take one breath at a time and one step at a time in reliance on Him. Through this journey, God has given me a voice to other step moms, to wives and mothers. Who knew? My favorite saying is really true — “through sacrifice comes blessing!”
Psalm 143:8 says, “Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in You. Show me the way I should go, for to You I lift up my soul.”
Life may have dealt you some hard knocks, but I’m telling you, the beauty of endurance and diligence, patience and compassion, love and a willingness to follow God and His plan – in obedience – will bring about a sweetness to your life that you never imagined.
Blessings in Your Blending!